I know that I haven’t been on here for a long time, and life has changed for me drastically. I am living miles and miles away from my original home, finding a new place to call home. I’m without a job, which is probably the weirdest change for me. I’m surprised how much going to work, having a place to work, makes me feel adrift. Days kind of bled into each other, without having my work schedule of the weekend and weekday I don’t know quite what day it is. I kind of rely on the hubby now and his schedule to know what day it is.
I am with my now husband, which feels great, but at the same time I can’t help feeling alone. My family is so far away, I miss going to work and my co-workers, I feel like everyone has forgotten about me.
Which I don’t think is true, but it’s just some days are harder than others. I don’t know quite what to do with all of the free time, so I end up swimming religiously like someone is chasing me. I feel like I get something accomplished when I’m out of breath and have done so many laps that I’ve lost count.
Everything is all just a huge change, I’m so happy we are finally together, but I’m so worried about finding that place to work at again.